Baby Blues

Have you ever been so adamant about something that you could never get over something? I have always said that I NEVER wanted to become a Mom. Never. You see, I have an issue with the Human Body. Yes, I know that's weird, but it is me. I cannot stand to look at the veins in my hands, or hear my heart beat. It really gives me the case of the queasies. So, to think that I could GROW another Human being INSIDE of me, is crazy, just crazy! I don't like my blood being taken, I have to lie down. Just the thought of an IV makes me want to faint.

Going back to my teens, I always told my mom that I didn't want any kids. They were noisy, & didn't listen, or the thought of never being by myself again, made me absolutely not want any kids. You mean, no free time? No picking up & just going to do what you want to do? You mean I have to schedule time around naps, fussiness, sickies?? Double What?? Oh No! That's NOT happening!  I like to do what I want, when I want.

But now, I have so many amazing nieces, nephews, & friends kids that I absolutely ADORE!! OMG!!!! I mean the cuteness that is in each & every one of them, makes me want to burst! & I keep thinking about that CLOCK!! I am almost 32 years old. I think the time is NOW to start thinking about the rest of my life. Should I bite the bullet & go through the things you endure with pregnancy? Or should I just not become a mother. I have been starting to research everything that happens during pregnancy, I'm not sure if that's a good idea or not....lol...but I need to prepare myself for something that I would be putting my body through. Sike myself up & bite the bullet.

My husband & I were together for 7 1/2 years before he asked me to be his Wife. We were constantly asked "when are you getting married?" We finally did, & as soon as that happened, here comes the "when are yall going to have babies?" UGH!!! I always felt that it was very rude. Like, how dare you ask me about MY personal life?! So, I would just tell everyone that we weren't having any kids. Plain & simple. End of story. Stop asking me. But now, now, I'm on the fence & actually starting to ask myself, if I really DON'T want to be a mom or If I DO.....oh decisions.....& life changing events....of course the Hubby is just going with my flow. Waiting for me to give him the go ahead. If you will.

So, I guess I'll continue to do my research, & probably freak myself out. So, stay tuned on this crazy Life in the Country..... :)

<3
Kelli